If I wait for a moment to happen, I might miss the moment that’s right in front of me.
I’d looked for what seemed like hours to see where I had missed those precious moments; moments that were near and dear, waiting for the perfect pitch, the melodic climax to arrive..
I’d fallen madly, head over heels in love with the “possible” future – a future that “I” wanted to see. I’d lost sight of what was, and had neglected the present. It was like I’d been sedated into a dream.
Once awakened, I saw the wondrous beauty of being loved unconditionally with relentless pursuit to fulfill my every desire. And then I saw the flip side: complications of being loved with conditions; a constant seesaw of emotions, a roller coaster of feelings and runaway thoughts. Elevated and deflated desire; a battle sometimes unbearable.
Mathew 18:9 Wherefore if thy hand or thy foot offend thee, cut them off, and cast them from thee: it is better for thee to enter into life halt or maimed, rather than two hands or two feet to be cast into everlasting fire.
The toughest decision to make was to remove that spinning wheel from my fairground and see what the open space would offer…perhaps a ferries wheel of joy is on the other side.
I knew I’d become addicted to the adrenaline and I’d made it a part of my everyday existence. I would have to make a clean break; stop the roller coaster cold turkey!
A question lingered: Would I be left maimed with a huge hole in my soul; a burning desire that could not be tamed?
Somewhere in the pit of my stomach I also knew that hole would fill again with love and passion, but I didn’t want to wait years for it.
The alternative was clear – I could live in constant hope for the future I created in my mind and had become addicted to, and miss my life completely or I could live in the power of the moment where truth lies and all things are possible……
I am clearly choosing the power of the moment.
Where are you living “for” the future and letting the precious gift of the present moment pass you by?
If you truly want more out of life than just constantly hoping for something to happen and you feel stuck in a rut, contact me for how you can breakthrough. I’d be happy to speak with you…